Have you been lied to by the one you love?
Have you been lied to by the one you love?
First lie, it hurts you. You feel the sharp pain, but you force yourself to leave it after awhile, no matter how hard it is. The only reason you do this is because you love the person so much. You hope for the best for this person, and you want to take care of this someone.
You do your best to restore your trust in this someone; just because you love this person so much. Hope restores itself naturally due to the love; respect as well. The love buried the pain that once tore you into a million pieces (you just forgot the pain-“ah…it was just a nightmare”, you tell yourself). The chances of this person lying to you will not happen because… it is simply nonsensical! Nah! It will not happen again! Sheesh!
So you happily carry on your life with this person, looking at the person like nothing happened. Although once in awhile you still feel the pain, you just brush it off. Life goes on; it is like old times eh? Holding those warm hands, the awfully pleasant laughter and the teasing; oh how wonderful! Oh how this person’s smile brightens up your day! Wow! The special someone is wearing the shirt you bought! How happy you are eh! Don’t want this day to end! Oh so wonderful!
A relationship is a relationship after all. There are some hiccups here and there, but overall, it is good and strong!
Day in, day out, you talk whenever both is free. You anxiously wait for this special star to call you; no matter how tired you are! Just to hear the voice for a minute or two, is enough!
Ahh… every morning you wake up thinking, when will I see this love of mine again? How I wish my darling is just beside me so I can give my dear a morning kiss! It is so beautiful to love this angel brought to me…
BAM!
It hits you again! The person you pinned all your hopes on did it again! The same person you love, trust and sacrificed for, lied to you again! What should you do? You should leave him! It is obvious, silly! But you cannot do it. You are not strong enough. But neither are you strong enough to accept the lie that has bestowed upon you. The love is too much for you to decide if you should leave or stay. How? Think!
Finally, you think you have made a decision. “I shall leave and never look back”, you say. So you went, met other people, etc. Plastered that great smile on your face, dolled yourself up, hoping the next person that comes by can mend your heart. But it is those eyes of yours that is such a give-away. Your close friends can obviously tell with one look how foolish you are!
Everyday is another step to a greater pain for you. Damn it hurts! Look at yourself in the mirror, and you see swollen eyes, wet cheeks, and trembling lips.
In the train, you will be thinking, what is my sweetheart doing now?
In the bus, who is my love with now?
In the elevator, is he happier without me?
In the club, is he kissing my replacement now?
In the restroom, you will find your eyes covered with a thicker film of water, and then a drop of pain will drop on your cheeks, followed by many more; for they are questions that make your heart bleed…
Then, a call from the moron one painful night! Oh no! You quickly pick it up. That ass was asking bout you. Want to know what you are doing, how are you, and how you are feeling. You act strong. After awhile, you loosen up. “Yeah, sure, lets meet up tomorrow”, you tell that idiot (or is it sweetheart?).
You just felt a huge wave of emotions when you take a look at the person who was once your angel. How you wish the hurt was just a dream. You are falling all over again. Oh that sweet face; those lips that you have yearned for since you can ever remember; those cheeks which you like to kiss when you used to flirt with the sweetheart.
You cannot leave. Your darling still loves you. And you love that person who has been roaming around in your head. You give another chance, hoping that history will not repeat itself. It is hard, but you are doing your very best. You doubt the person sometimes, and that is something you cannot stop as you are too hurt to be hurt again.
It will be tough. But you hold on to whatever you can. You are just simply blinded by love for that special someone. You believe a better person will come out of this…
Let us hope that this person treasures you; keep you warm on the days you feel cold, and be the teddy when you need comfort.
