sizzling

I cried almost everyday after he left me. But it ended a few days ago. Every night, when I was alone, I would pray that the pain will just go away and that I need a clear mind to think straight. So, this one night, I cried my heart out, sobbing and drenched my pillow with my tears. I prayed silently with all my heart and with every life of me that I was left with. I prayed till I fell asleep.

The next morning, I woke up feeling refreshed, wonderful and super energetic! It was like nothing happened at all. I was suddenly so happy! I felt that my love for him is fading faster and faster. And I do not know why and how I was suddenly so at ease. So many things came to my mind. I realised that he never really loved me after all, he doesnt appreciate me, and why am I begging him to come back? If he loves me, he would not hurt me. He would not even leave me in the first place! I realised how blind I was for 3 years. My life was about to go down the drain without him. After so long, I have managed to pick myself up and walk another path; a better one.

Now, I am already almost there. I am losing my love for him after so long. Allah heard my prayers and saw how badly shattered I was, and how hard I was doing to get him out of my life. I loved him. I really did. I would have done anything to have him back. Too bad he did not appreciate me and left.

Celebrating my freedom, happiness and life. Thats what I am going to do now!

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