sizzling

Ahmad went for his ear infection surgery on Wed. Poor him. I went to his house on Wed itself. He walked slowly just to open the door for me. He was puking a lot he said. Its because of the anesthesia.

I am forever shy with his family. hehe… Last 2 weeks, on Sunday, his family asked me out for lunch! I WAS TERRIFIED OK! I was sooo shy that I kept quiet! Sat beside Ahmad. I gave him three quarters of my murtabak. I couldnt eat! hehe…. well.. things you do for someone you love eh….

Today is my sis’s bday. Supposed to meet her at St James Movida. But plans changed. Ahmad’s cuz tried to go in, and they said its full. When he got out of the queue, the bouncers actually let others in. I think they are discriminating! So I called my sis and told her. She quickly informed her other friends and they all went to Pump Room.

Well, Ahmad and I were already there about 2hrs before. So we just decided to stay there. Anw, it was just ok. Powerhouse’s music were not as good as it used to; and it was getting more crowded! And today was the first dey he ever bought me a drink! hehehe… When I was feeling more ‘free’, I just felt like dancing! But I only managed to for awhile. He didnt allow me to grind him ok. He said that people were looking, and he doesnt like attention. But I can see the grin on his face whenever i attempted to.

We left ard 2am to our next destination. Well, it is almost 6 now, and he just reached back to camp at CCK after sending me back. Oh… I love to dance with him. I am most comfortable with him; Sya comes next! I must drag that girl one day! Even if I’ll have to pull her hair!

Btw baby, I love you. Did I tell you today…? Hehehe….OK, I know, this must be the 100th time I am telling you today itself! Sleep tight honey!

Sometimes, you know when you are just having that feeling. You miss the person so much that you think more often about him than breathing. You dont have to do anything during your date to be happy and feel loved. You can also just sit and hug each other in silence.

I feel too dependant emotionally on him. Love makes me feel dead, but alive; weaker, yet stronger; sad; but happier. What a collection of emotion to feel.

He has been so nice to me.

Today, is a great day! The TV i bought for my aunt arrived! She was happy! Not only that, something else made me even more joyous. I found out that I am going to be an aunt in 8 months! My sister in law is pregnant! My darling also passed his test! I really appreciate these good incidents. It is all of coz, thanks to Him.

Yes, yes, yes! Of all places, we went to Batam! hehe… but its ok after all. Most important thing was that my honie was beside me. I realised that it doesnt matter where we are; doesnt matter what we do; and doesnt matter how the experience was. The best thing about it was him. Really.

We initially argued a lot bout the destination, plans, etc. Though we made it up, I realise now that it was just a waste of time. It was him that really mattered; and not anyone or anything else. He is such a gentleman. Cheering me up when I am not happy about something; discussions there were just all smooth as we compromised really well.  Hehe… I love him.

Well, anyways, on the 11th of July, Ahmad and I took the earlier ferry at around 2:10pm. When we reached there, we were picked up by a hired driver who drove us on a bumpy ride to the hotel. We chilled out for a bit and unpacked our stuff. Then the driver drove us to a shopping mall. Nothing much there, but we just walked around. After a bit, we had dinner. Super cheap ok! After converting, the 2 of us ate for just S$6 in total! And we ate so much!!!

The driver then sent us back to the hotel so that he can go change to a bigger van to accomodate the other 13 that would be comin later in the evening. When he got back, we went to the shopping centre opposite the ferry terminal. By the time we got there, most of the shops we already closed or starting to pack up for the day. We spent bout an hour waiting for the other 13 folks to arrive.

When all 15 of us were in attendance, we headed to the hotel, then went to have dinner for those who were starving.

Later that night, we were all just chilling in one of the guys’ room till the wee hours of the morning.

The breakfast was kindda pathetic! It was only like 4 dishes! I hardly took a lot. Made for Ahmad and myself toast. After breakfast, we chill out at our corridoor and played cards for like 3hrs! I must say, Ahmad and I together, we make a good pair when playing cards!

We then headed to our spa. One of the girls recommended it. But I just find it so-so lah… nothing fantastic about it though. While waiting for the others to finish their spa session, most of us were starving.

Called for the driver, picked us up, and headed to a restaurant named ‘Arai’. it was only 10 of us who ate there and the bill amounted to Rp600,000!!! It is ridiculous! We obviously got cheated, but we didnt dare say much as we wont know what they will do to us. So much more ex compared to the S$6 meal for 2 we had the prev night!

Some of the couples headed for a second round of massage, while the others and me headed back to the hotel. We slept like pigs! haha….

That night, we headed to a KTV. I dont sing, but it was fun watching others sing tho. We were shagged by then. Went back, and everyone bumped.

The next morning, everyone else didnt wake up, except for Ahmad, Radin and myself. We were the only 3 up for breakfast! We headed back to our rooms, packed and watch tv.

After check-out, we squeezed all our luggage in the van and headed for some last minute shopping.

Our ferry was scheduled at 5:30pm(Batam time), but 2 of the guys was scheduled at 5:20pm. The driver was late and the 2 guys missed their ferry and had to book another ferry! We were all waiting anxiously, scared that our ferry would have left too.

All in all, I had a great time with my darling, except for the last 1 hour where we were separated in the ferry.

I want to plan another holiday with him. Perhaps in October. Tioman? KL? Redang? Lets see eh…

I am planning for a nice, mentally relaxing but physically engaging ‘olidae! Thinking of Tioman. Make acquaintances with the fish by doing scuba, bumping my ass on the jet ski cause of waves, and perhaps some trekking too. Spa, that goes without saying!

I dont mind going Bintan again. But the expenses there are incredible! It seems like a 200+++% mark up! I dont know, just want to have a nice memorable time with Ahmad with some of our friends; of cause, have some private time too. From my research, I think Tioman is less of a hassle compared to Bintan if we are considering food and the calculation of money, as Tioman is generally cheaper. But then, Tioman is pretty far. Sigh… will have to talk this out with my darling before any decision is made….

We started out with movie at Vivo. Watched

Kingdom of Heaven. Since he has not been to Gold Class, I thought it would be nice. We then sent back the car to my Bedok house and changed into our night outfits. When we reached St James, (long story short), we decided that it would not be this night that we will be enjoying St James!

So Sya, Ahmad and I headed to a coffee shop near Geylang and chill, making fun of me! I was the victim of their torture. How sad!

Anyways, sayang, the day is actually great although we wasted some money if you think about it. We did watch Gold Class. And if your friends really came, it will be more annoying to know that we cannot be bothered to queue for St James and end up at a coffee shop! And most importantly, we did have a good time together. Don’t you agree? Don’t be sad over it ok. I am not. I enjoyed myself. Coz its hard for me to spend the whole day with you like this cause of you stupid shifts!

As I have always said, I will be here for you. Always.

It is 6:30am now. I just reached home about half an hour ago. And the newly turned 23 year old, about 15mins ago. I drank a can of Red Bull and I think it literally gave me wings.  Haha… OK… gonna sleep now! I am exhausted with all the laughing and traveling already. Love you baby…

Love

There is no one proper definition of the word ‘love’. It is too vague. It means different to different people. To some, love is giving your life to someone. To me, it is about going ahead in your life with someone; not to change for that someone. You got to be yourself.

Others think love is beautiful. To me, love is not only beautiful; it is a ‘roller coaster ride’. You make your decision with a payment, go through the ride, and when it is over, it leaves you feeling… full of emotions(depending how the ride was)! There is a lot of bitterness, sourness, and of course, comfort and spiciness in a relationship. An exciting ride will make you want to ride it again. A lousy ride, you will regret.

When it comes to that special someone, you should not use the word ‘sacrifice’. Sacrifice is to loose something that means a lot to you for something that is not so significant to you. For example, you say you sacrifice your friends for your girlfriend. It is as if you are saying that she is less important than your friends. Think about it, if you loose your friends, but gained someone who can give you much more than your friends, and walk your life with you, is it not worth it?

This special someone who is really sweet and gentle said to me. “If I spend time with another 20 or even 50 girls, do you think I will treat them the same or even close?” I said “No, because there is only one of me.” He replied in return, “Yes, because I cant love another like I love you. Cant share this special thing between us with someone else.” I know he means it by the look of his eyes. He has been so good to me. After more than 4 years, despite all the ‘roller coaster ride’, we are going through it again.

My mum told me, you will only know who is your meant to be, only when one of you take your last breath. Even in marriage there is divorce. You can love someone so much that you are willing to loose your life for that person, but still, it may not be yours to keep. If you think about it, it is true…

Dont know wats with me. Maybe I just like sexy and witty stuff. I have been in love with romance books. The more sex parts, the better! haha… Yesterday, i read a book titled ‘The Erotic Secrets of a French Maid’. Fuhyo….! HOT I tell you! (But nothing beats Harry Potter) Only half done. Going to continue when I have the time.

I realised that no matter what you are feeling, books are a good way to forget bout life for awhile. Whenever I feel down or lost, I will pick up a book and read. My mind will almost immediately sink into the story and all that was bothering me will just dissolve. It brings you to another world. Even when I am done reading, my mind will linger around the story still. Thinking what could have happen if the character had made another decision. Although it is the end of the book, what would it be if the story still goes on?

Books give me creativity. Helps me in making decisions when the time comes. Life is a storybook that has no ending. Loads of twists and turns, all sorts of emotions, from despair to pleasure, and crisis.

Life has been pretty balanced I guess. Work is alright, friends are great, and boyfriend, has never been better.

Have been going out with friends, my sister and my boyfriend a lot. My boyfriend now makes the effort to meet me at least once a week. And he tells me he loves me almost everyday. Clubbing with him has been great too. I can dance and move so freely with him. My eyes wil only be fixed on him and no one else. Looking at him smile can make me melt. He is still the hunk I knew 4 years ago.

Somehow, I am glad that I did not get to know anyone during the period we broke up. Else, I would have missed this wonderful feeling he has been giving me. He has been making me feel so beautiful and great. This is the guy that I have been dreaming of. This closeness, makes me love life.

My good friend, Sya, has also been a wonderful bitch. haha… we have been chillin out a lot. We can talk about almost anything. We even share clothes ok. Her boyfriend also sortz a bit. But fun!

Hope this goes on… I m appreciating everything now…